Barffie The Whine Connoisseur

” I’m not trying to
Make you feel uncomfortable
I’m not trying to
Make you anything at all
But this feeling
Doesn’t come along every day
And you shouldn’t
Blow the chance
When you got the chance to say

I love you, I love you
I honestly love you”
~ I Honestly Love You by Olivier Newton John

>> Thanks Ben for sending this song tt made me go :~~~~~~~~~
And thanks for the night out lim jiu-ing with the male giggling
thing still traumatising me…. BRRRRRR…

Yes we all need space.
But what do we do
now that we are galaxies apart?

After months of “anticipation”
SPH Human Resource finally gave my my appointment letter…
A cause to celebrate.
But wait.
No pay increment.
I don’t even feel like talking about it.
It’s HR policy! WTF!
Can only adjust pay until the end of the year! WTF!

But at least I have some bloody letter saying I have been
TRANSFERRED to be a producer.
Transfer kilanz! Same dept transfer kilanz!
AND! I have a set of namecards that say I am a producer.
AND! I am indeed doing more producer stuff.
AND! My pay is still in the 1.7 range.

KNS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dun wanna talk about it anymore.
So people.
I’ll appreciate it if you all can avoid asking me qns abt my salary.

Thanks Biona for informing me abt that Disney ad.
But they need people fluent in Tamil -_- so out for me.

But thanks Hweekoooooon for finding that National Geographic
ad for me…
I will do the resume up soon.
Wow… but the job is based in Hong Kong ahhh… (fake HK accent)

Get the position, build the portfolio and fuck off elsewhere.

“I’m not a perfect person
There’s many things I wish I didn’t do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you”
~ Reason by Hoobastank

Not that I will change for you,
not as if you will change for me,
and also nobody HAS to change for nobody.
But I will accept you,
like you did.
I am sorry for doubting you.
But we’ll work it out ya?

Hmm… Watched Passion of Christ with Ricky, Weijie and Jacelyn…
not as bloody n violent as I thought.
Not a bad movie, but I wished I know more of the characters.

In this case, I guess the bible can be quite an interesting “story book”
to read…
I read the front of it before, and I sort of lost tt copy.
Something abt Adam and Eve…
Well I am not going to think that it’s true or not,
just reading it from a “story book” point of view.
Yeah… I don’t think it’s a bad idea.
I’d read Buddhist stories if there are any out there…
Well basically I am just intrigued by the stories in there,
that’s all… No religious thoughts or beliefs there…

Well back to the movie,
I did avert my eyes at 2 points of the show,
once during the torture part,
where the cat o nine tails caught the side of Jesus’s body,
and tears out the skin…
(It’s all make up it’s all make up…)
But I read tt the actor James something,
he did accidentally got a slash across his back. OUCH.
Another time where the other guy (dunno who),
who also got crucified together with Jesus,
after he said some stupid things to him,
got his eyes poked by a crow. I saw tt coming and I looked away.

But overall it’s not as bad as I thought,
it’s just heart breaking la… =\
Monica Belluci did nothing much but cried n stuff.
But the females in the show did add some incredible touching factor
I would say… =\

I thought the actor, James Ca..something…
(who also did Frequency, another show that I liked)
He’s got these eyes that are very… captivating, kind and everything…
That digitally-enhanced eye color… woot.
And I thought they were contacts,
and the tele-cine bit enhanced the color,
but no they were all changed digitally in post.
The amount of rotoscoping huh.

This Jesus character is definitely more charming than
Keanu Reeves in Little Buddha, much more. -_-

Well read this portion in some forum…
In the Bible, God says “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”

Is true love like that? Hmm…
Not religious pov again, but yeah…
True love… hmm… … ???

“I want you the right way
I want you, but I want you to want me too,
Want you to want me baby
Just like I want you
Da da, da da, da da da

I’ll give you all the love I want in return
But half a love is all I feel, sweet darling
It’s too bad, it’s just too sad
You don’t want me no more
But I’m gonna change your mind
Some way, somehow
Da da, da da, da da da

One way love is just a fantasy
To share is precious, pure and fair
Don’t play with something you should cherish for life
Oh baby, don’t you wanna care?
Ain’t it lonely out there?

I want you the right way
I want you, but I want you to want me too,
Want me baby, just like I want you.
Da da, da da, da da da”
~ I Want You by Madonna + Massive Attack

Your heart’s not open.
So why lead me to the entrance,
and leaving me there without the key?

I know it is the way you are.
Not good with expressing how u feel.
I know u need to find that job.
Peace.
You’ll have ur space and the time you need.

Come to me when u need some company.
No biggie.

“If I could melt your heart…
We’ll never be apart…”
~ Frozen by Madonna

Back from Bangkok.
First piece of news when I arrived,
is the collapse of Nicoll Highway at 3:30pm.
Up till now, 1 worker had died, and 3 other still missing. =\
At that time I was still gazing out the window of the plane.
Wondering if we would have a safe landing.
How things could change in a matter of seconds, huh…
But we can never be sure.

Started on this post on a slightly heavy note.
But well lemme sum up what I have seen and learnt,
on my little venture to Bangkok, with me and myself for company.

I’ve seen…
> … for myself how Chatuchak market looks like now, not as “chat” as I tot.
But it is really very hot there. Almost roasted in BKK as a whole.

> … that there’s a BIG “Taxi-Meter” sign sitting on top of the licensed cabs.

> … the motorcycle taxi drivers actually wears some official orange vest.
But always see them standing ard, not actually driving ppl ard.

> … a Thai sailor, wearing a REAL sailor’s outfit. COOL!

> … Pat Pong the Red-Light District, with the girls sitting outside. Chioz!

> … a Thai movie trailer, Godzilla-genre, with a giant eagle emerging from the front of Mah Boon Khrong Centre. Wondering how they shot that anyway, cos I realise the front is already covered by skytrain tracks.

> … a movie = “50 First Dates” at MBK’s cinema (just 100bht), nice seats, nice dolby stereo trailers (SG trailers usually stereo niah!)!

> … that their equivilant of KBox might be this SF Music City thingy,
where songs r dispensed in a vending machine like environment. But nice clear cylinders and food where the people can sing karaoke inside there! 20bht/song… Quite ex leh… =\ considering I sing alot :X Heh heh.

> … their BTS Skytrain stations are much longer than their 3-carriage trains. Is this is for accomodating the bad braking skills of the drivers?

> … their tight army uniforms, someone shld be drooling right now -_-

I’ve learnt that…
> … apart from e fast food places, they usually collect payment after u finish eating… Malu la, I keep asking pay where or ask how much, only to be replied with lost/embarrassed expressions… =\

> … I might look like Thai girl anyway. They keep speaking to me in Thai, until I ask, “How much?” I shld learn some Thai now… -_-”’

> … Thai girls are smaller than average Singapore girls,
you rarely see a plump Thai girl around. I feel like a sofa in e streets.

> … their bra sizes go way down to 65A=70A! They must hv really small rib-cages or I am jus FAT. I can barely find my size… sianz! The bras are not much cheaper, considering I dun wear expensive bras like Triumph n Wacoal. So yeah I only bought 1 bra. Plus their designs din catch my attention that much wor.

> … they have really nice kuey tiao soup at the roadside stalls. WOOT!

> … the Thais really respect their king, before the movie starts, all of the theatre-goers have to stand up during a quite awfully made video of him, shown just right before the movie. This is NEW.

> … it’s good staying at Asia Hotel that’s linked to the Ratchatewi stn, just one stop away from the main Siam stop (where all the Siam Sq n MBK are), 2-3 stops away from Sala Deung (where Pat Pong is), 6 stops from Mor Chit (where Chatuchak is)… NOT BAD at all!

> … getting a one-day trip ticket is worth it at 100bht, unlimited use, you can actually shop at Chatuchak, carry things back to hotel, chill out from the heat, go out n shop some more, with no cost at all!

> … Tuk tuks are not as common a sight as I thought.

> … I was really happy to type on a keyboard once more in a tiny shop in MBK on Monday evening. 15bht/30mins.

I have never watched so much MTV Asia in my entire life. Ahahaha!
But at least I had a good lifestyle!
Sleep early, wake up early for hotel breakfast!
Back to SG = back to sleep late, wake up late… -_-

But I enjoyed the solitude, the roaming, running free thingy I experienced there. With no one to wait for. With no one to answer to.
With no one to fight with me for bathroom.

I might go out and roam by myself again.
Next destination: Koh Samui or Krabi. Perhaps.

I iz going to Bangkok all by myself tomorrow…
Flight’s Thai Airways at 7:45am…
Gotta wake up early…
*Excited!*

Yesterday went to Ikea w K n “XiaoYa”…
Finally used my $100 Ikea Voucher you people got me for my last BD!
THANK YOU!!!!!
Bought quilt + quilt covers, some hanging thing on e wall…
Woot woot gg to do my room up after I come back from BKK…

OK confirmed I am NOTTTTT going to Florida n Tokyo anymore.
:”(
In true Mr M style,
he has gone MIA prior to the day I am supposed to fly…
WITHOUT any air tickets or hotel vouchers.
NO INFO. NO NOTHING.

Well doesn’t matter I can enjoy my leave…
But I would like to say something to him .!.
Fuck u! YOU SUCK!

BUT! I iz going for shopping at Bangkok!!!!!!!!
Always wanted to go there.
And I know it’s the hottest period at this time,
but heck, sunblock to the rescue…
And oh, I am going there alone.
Hope all goes well.
And I am going to SHOP TILL I DROP!

WaAHahahaha!!!
Tee shirts!
Skirts!
Jeans!
Shoes!
Bangles!
Earrings!
Bags!
Bras!
Panties!
WOOT WOOT WOOT!!!!!! *going hysterical*

And poor Mr K got injured ankle due to soccer.
DUH men men men and their stupid obsession with balls.

Anyway, I feel good…
Always wanted to go roaming around on my own.
It’s the sense of freedom and exploration tt fills me when I am in somewhere totally foreign to me.
Sooooooo I’ll be gg on Sat morning, back on Tue. YAY!