Wanderlust.

ahz been away for quite long, maybe jus 6 days or so?…
been to KL & Malacca for the last weekend

would like to thank Jooli for bringing me around,
accomodating my presence, and spending money along with my visit…
really appreciate that!

now that i have changed my perception about KL and stuff,
i will wanna go there again!
change in perception: meaning i dun think it’s THAT ulu or something
cos it’s Malaysia, except for the fear of losing cars and being mugged…
no nationalist feelings here,
but somehow i thank the safety and comfort SG possesses.
ooh thanks PAP. -_- ”’

ooh and did i mention i think i like travelling alone now?
sitting all silent and stinky-mouthed on the coach to a “faraway” land…
when i alighted at jalan ampang of KL,
with just me, no one and nothing else except the lugguage in my arms…
i feel… free. and simply happy.

SO! next up i will be saving up for a trip to Australia,
sometime Mid-2004?
cos alot of frens going over there ma…
lemme list those that i know of…
Melbourne – Jooli, Gracie, Jason
Adelaide – Remy
Brisbane – Alaric
Sydney – Vanessa
Perth – Shujuan

YAY! Road Trip!

and… realised that friendster is actually quite good?
found some long lost friends and ex-classmates…
but i’m not as popular as some ppl like Ravenelle lor…
got many fwens and interesting testimonials… >:P

no offence to anyone who posted a testimonial on me,
but i realise ppl have nothing much to say abt me,
except “crazy”, “funny”, “crazy”…

i think it’s my own demeanor that leads to ppl (not close to me)
having very little vocabulary to describe me.
now i shall portray a more SOPHISTICATED, WELL-MANNERED, SWEEEET
image to strangers and friends…
(i hear the “BULLSHIT!”, “YA RIGHT”, “WTF?!” voices in the backgrd…)
yAY! so i managed to spark a controversy?
WIGHT. no i am not going to become anything less ALT than ALT man…

Do Not Fret.

Songs.

would like to sing songs like these.
do chillout vocals for songs like these.
> Gorecki by Lamb
> Manic Star by Conjure One
> Hummingbirds by Venus Hum
(thanks to Auranoir for intro-ing these songs to me)
and house tracks are good too… ;\

i got quite a wide vocal range, plus i suit higher scale tracks-
which means these songs would actually flatter n suit my voice…
but the inner devil in me is still working overtime.
saying “You’ll piss in ur pants when u stand on the stage…”

“if i should die this very moment
i wouldn’t fear
for i’ve never known completeness
like being here
wrapped in the warmth of you
loving every breath of you
still my heart this moment
or it might burst

could we stay right here
’til the end of time, ’til the earth stops turning
wanna love you ’til the seas run dry” – Gorecki by Lamb

Movies.

watched Italian Job.
not bad. not exactly WONDERFUL or mind-blowing.
(maybe it’s the SEATS right??? HMM guys? too farrrrrrrrr back?)
have expected this standard from an action film man…
ok it’s the genre,
the thieves-cooks-up-incredible-conspiracy-and-executes-powerfooly
kinda genre…
seen before- a little spent liao the subject,
and not as much Mini Cooper scenes as the hype made it out to be…
edward norton was so-so only…

ok… GIMME ANOTHER FIGHT CLUB OR SOMETHING DAMMIT!
i want good movies.
guess the last good one was the overall well-produced
Pirates of Caribbean.

On the Playlist….

hmm… as u all know i’ve always been raving abt house music,
and electronica and music like that.
but on this night,
i found myself putting this (sort of) classical track on loop.
and furiously downloading different variations of it…

the theme track from Requiem For A Dream…
the movie is very good indeed…
but i dun use to find myself being drawn to the score
of a movie like this…
yes there are good tracks in certain movies like Romeo + Juliet,
but they are mostly songs…
the first few minutes (of Requiem) was all it took for me to say…
“this is a haunting track…”
and it does bring out the heaviness and the mood of the show very much…
as i’ve mentioned to someone – “it’s so heavy that it hurts.”

and did i mention a different version of it has been produced
for the Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers trailer?
ahz… no wonder i could recognise the tune when the trailer’s
playing on TV Mobile a few days back.

one thing i have to admit is -
i din think so much of the movie, or of the soundtrack sometime later…
but my thoughts were revived by this ad done by a (powerrrr)
German design firm, Velvet Design.
and so i thought – “hmmrph… there goes the haunting track.”
then i found myself sifting through Kazaa’s search results,
track information and clips streamed on VH1.com…

and there they are,
sitting on my Winamp playlist now. on loop.

Back To Work….

oh man going back to work on tuesday…
i dun want i dun want!!!!!!!!!!! *kicks and screams and stamps feet*
but hell yeah…
i HAVE to go back… ABCDEFG!!!
feeling uber lazy man…

recently nothing much to talk abt…
quite stoned… quite empty… quite peaceful…
furiously listening to songs…
and RE-liking this Kylie Minogue song…

Come imagine me dancing to this one… >:)
Assholepup we shld practise the dancesteps again huh…
beat those 2 disgusting guys!!!
moahahaha…

“I just can’t get you out of my head
Boy your loving is all I think about
I just can’t get you out of my head
Boy it’s more than I dare to think about

Every night, every day
Just to be there in your arms
Won’t you stay
Won’t you lay
stay forever and ever and ever and ever

I just can’t get you out of my head
Boy your love is all I think about
I just can’t get you out of my head
Boy it’s more than I dare to think about

There’s a dark secret in me
Don’t leave me locked in your heart
Set me free
Feel the need in me
Set me free
Stay forever
And ever and ever and ever…”

woohoo! *dances to kylie minogue’s shrill voice…*

Happy Birthday to Me.

Moahahahaa happy birthday to me…
but doing nothing at home…
hard to get ppl to meet me to cheong or something on weekdays…
(not like rave who got her bd on sat in 2002 n sunday in 2003)
wanted to go Mambo (ladies night ma…)
but couldn’t find girls to go w me…
guys wun wanna pay to party on a weekday…
so… XP

“I feel so calm tonight
like I’m floating into space
I feel my anger now
vanishing without a trace
I feel so weak tonight
I’m no longer in control
I feel so different now
that it’s time to face my soul

You gave me the time
to change the memory
But if I forget myself -
Will you remember me?

Will you remember me?

I feel so bright tonight
like I’m glowing in the dark
I feel so distant now
burning like the smallest spark
I feel so weak tonight
like I’m hardly even there
I feel much older now
but I’m still too young to care” – Disremembrance by Dannii Minogue

Children?.

OOOOooK….
got back from Orchard (where i am going back later)
the Sheraton Towers ballroom is BRRR fugging cold…
nearly froze my wrists off…
got weak wrists, esp the left wrist…
cannot seem to tahan cold air for even short periods of time…
i guess it spells bladdy rheumatism for me at old age…

As for the Adobe shit…
all is well and all is good…
but i din manage to win the premiere pro software… damn!
not as if my computer is power enough to support tt,
but at least i can sell ok!

not thinking abt much currently
except what to wear to jacq’s thingy later…

took 14 home just now…
suddenly find myself in the middle of a busful of sec students
hollering to each other at the top of their voices,
jolting me out of my peaceful weekday afternoon nap on the wobbly bus…
the fresh-faced youths… the pre-maturely jaded me…
ahz tt was a long time ago man… *nostalgia*

i feel old inside. and i am afraid of being old.
so i got insurance to protect myself (somehow), to prepare for old age.
i dun wanna be supported by my children tt much,
i know the amt of pressure on those shoulders- i understand tt perfectly…
but they have to learn to be less dependant at a younger age.
they must learn to be street smart.
and they must understand money has to be earned,
not appear miraculously in their bank accounts.
i’ll want them to earn their keep, and be able to fulfil their dreams.
i’ll give them a hand for sure, but i have to make sure i do not hinder them…
i’ll want my children to run free (not run wild),
to be free of family chains, but not of family ties for sure.
i’ll pin my hopes for freedom on them.
but then again, i might not wanna have kids. -_-”’

Haha Late Again.

Moahaha… ben gu niang on leave today…
jealous??? Moahahaha…

assholepup: i on leave leh…
what u gonna do abt it? gar gar call me BITCH?! maoahahah bleah…

yeap did nothing much today…
1> paid $200 worth of utility, home phone, broadband bills…
2> found my bank account a little too empty – helped pay for gifts n stuff…
3> late for yoga class – which means i did went back to office…
4> slipped & rolled onto the floor during class, lafter heard…
5> managed the bridge, the half-moon, the inverted half-moon, warrior 3,
the shoulder stand, the plough… ok i am going into details huh…

ok tomorrow will be another long day…
1> After Effects 6 launch at 9am – gotta reach newton mrt at 8:40am
2> Do nothing? Go home and prepare for…
3> Jacq’s wedding dinner… no make up kit how… :’(

Hmm… *mumble mumble*
i guess it’s a little late in the night for me to speak coherently…
hmm… i think i shld go zzz… hmm hmm… *mumble mumble*

Boy From Ipanema.

Woohoo had 2 pretty hectic days…
but all was fun – coz i know i’m surrounded by friendship,
laughter, warmth, and simple happiness!

jacq’s wedding went well, bloopers are expected in every event…
but she still worrying about it AFTER the whole thing was over?!
haaha guess we are all worriers by nature…
and it’s considered THE biggest event in her life…
RELAX jacqueline goh miaw shioang aka Mrs Wong!
the hardest part is over already…
now it’s the time to manage ur life, and Rueben’s life together…
manage it well, and u will be rewarded ultimately…

well lost the entire make up pouch last night…
might be in the trash of embargo now… ;\
a whole lot of bags under the table…
might have fallen out somehow… then…
not to mention i was quite drunk…
not was drunk as the last few times…
but still quite drunk…
so i just grabbed my bag n my other big big bag…
hmm ;\ sianz now have to buy again…
SIANZ!!!!! the blusher quite new ok… given to me by my sis…
the clear mascara – quite ex… given to me by someone else…
woohoo… alot of gifts in there – now gone… ;\

anyway i love the chillout n the gathering of everyone fun n wacky…
but it’s expensive… hur hur…
maybe a few yrs down the road we can do tt…
all the PMEBs ppl… :O

well had fish n co to celebrate ravenelle’s BD…
very full sial… big portion… :X
tomorrow must work hard during yoga…
got new Nike yoga mat… woohooo!

but fun fun fun happy happy happy these 2 days…
i feel complete basking in the warmth of friendship…
ah if complete with a bf… Wahahahahaha… … …

“Tall and tan and young and handsome
The boy from Ipanema goes walking
And when he passes, each girl he passes goes ahh
When he walks, he’s like a samba
He swings so cool and sways so gently
That when he passes, each girl he passes goes ahh

Oh, but I watch him so sadly
How can I tell him I love him
Yes, I would give my heart gladly
But each day when he walks to the sea
He looks straight ahead, not at me

Tall and tan and young and handsome
The boy from Ipanema goes walking
And when he passes, I smile
But he doesn’t see, no he doesn’t see” – The Boy From Ipanema

Eye Problem.

Dun feel too well today
My eyes feel like there’s a piece of rock inside or something.
My fault – because I wanted to “stretch” the use of my contacts for a few more days… Now I suffer – STOOPID ME!
Was desperately trying to blink the discomfort away the entire day,
but no use… ;\
I hope my cornea is not coming off!?!
Ok I’m freaking out I know…

Left my entire MP3 collection in office – now nothing much to listen to…
so sad… Boring as hell…

Argh my eye!

Alot of things to buy and to spend money on recently,
like birthday presents, wedding ang pows, stuff to wear on e wedding,
things to do to myself (like coloring the hair…) and stuff…
but i haven’t gotten those vanity products YET.
and it’s already wednesday… or rather the end of wednesday now…
HOWWWWWWWWWWWW…

no motivation for work recently.
just uber lethargic.
uber sianz.
looking forward to my leave…