Movies To Watch.

YES! i’m afraid of pang-sehing u guys
cos i’m really busy with work lately…
and of cos u guys will say something else
but i dun remember u all jioing me to anything leh??
only Irreversible which I watched with S, right?

come on man – u all can still call me out!
my phone is always there for ur msgs!

but i planning to go gym on every Tuesday for Power Yoga,
every Wednesday and Thursday if possible.
Make it 2-3 times per week.
Make it a habit.

List of movies I wanna watch:
1. Lost In Translation – Award Winning sial!
2. Goodbye Lenin – Good plot!
3. Cold Mountain – Jude Law n Nicole Kidman!
4. Big Fish – Tim Burton!

I got a little disturbed with S’s ex presence lately.
But I was assured and stuff…
And I do hv faith in us
SO……

Harry Assss.

Alright I kena complained tt my blog is all abt lovey dovey stuff…
ahahaha but but,
those r the big stuff going on in my life now maaa…

Well Harry is leaving for MGM in a few weeks’ time,
I’ll be missing him alot.
His gayish outfits and diva demeanor…
His horrible, embarrassing jokes n questions about my personal life…
His high-pitched laugh…
His extremely corny and cheesy trailers…

Alright he’s not GONE as in… u know…
But, we’ll miss his presence!

Well time for BHB la…
But he once intro-ed me to Denise as his Favorite AP.
So! MOahahaha… I hope he meant it…
cos I treasure a good relationship,
be it work or friendship…
And of course I hope (and everyone else too) he’ll bring us over
to let us graze on the greener and yummier pastures… ~~~

Been advised by several peeps to work harder,
complain and whine less, accomplish more interesting trailers,
continue to find my own piece of green pasture…

Yes I would like that. Very much indeed.

But Hweekooooon is also right when she said,
I’m someone who puts L.O.V.E. on the top of my list.
Well, I’m greedy, I want all… ermm… Ya…

But yeah, I’m a simple girl.
Who just want a simple life.
No big, flamboyant, yuppie lifestyle for me…

But I’m happy with nice colleagues,
comfortable work zone, great friends, a good guy,
sufficient moolah, my little home where I can do it up like a lounge…

I suddenly got reminded of what I thought of Love.
Had a long long long analysis abt it before,
but I realised it can be summarised in one line.

“Love is when 2 people bring out the best in each other.”

How about that?

“I’m wild again, beguiled again
A simpering, whimpering child again
Bewitched, bothered and bewildered – am I?”
~ “Bewitched, Bothered and Bewildered” by Ella Fitzgerald

Afraid To Lose.

“Something’s telling me it might be you,
All of my life…”
~ “It Might Be You” by Stephen Bishop

The more something seems perfect,
the more I’m afraid it’ll go away.

To quote Anita Mui in an interview before she passed away:
“Everytime I’m with someone,
I’ll get the feeling that he would be the last one.”
Which didn’t happen, she passed away without the One.

I’m afraid.
To lose him.

Kissing.

“The red light of the sun
Slowly descending
The sky is all I see
It’s never ending

We could fly
You and I
On a cloud
Kissing, Kissing

The wind plays with the leaves
The weather turns colder
But as long as we believe
Love doesn’t get older

We could fly
You and I
On a cloud
Kissing, Kissing

On the journey of a hope
There’s so much to see
And when the sky is dark
You’ll be right here, right here with me

Right here with me…
Kissing…” ~ Kissing by Bliss

Thankful.

i feel peaceful.
and relieved now.
i guess it was a good decision now.
that i end it before it gets deeper.
and it will hurt both of us even more. so. yeah.

and.
there is someone else now.
we r not together,
but his appearance made me see the stagnant stage i was in.
and i shld move on.
not tt i cheated on M,
but whatver minuscle feelings i hv for him faded over time.

i am looking for someone…

who can travel with me,
share his life with me,
dance with me,
sing with me,
read with me,
walk with me,
laugh with me,
feel with me…
it was from my 20 nov 2003 entry.

i didn’t feel alot of that with M.
but yeah, maybe i was disillusioned. =\

anyways, new feelings for a “brand new” year!
it’s a good start.
Peace and Love to all of u people reading this!

and thank you M. i really do.

Music from Lamb.

“Falling in love
Is only for the brave
So tell me angel how strong
Is your heart?” ~ Escape by Lamb

“Finding someome is like finding yourself a home
If the key fits – just open the door” ~ Cotton Wool by Lamb

“Things change yet so much stays the same
Life’s just a dream we have of reality
Love’s strength enhances what we have
And then strips us of our sanity” ~ Closer by Lamb

“If I should die this very moment
I wouldn’t fear
For I’ve never known completeness
Like being here
Wrapped in the warmth of you
Loving every breath of you
Still my heart this moment
Or it might burst” ~ Gorecki by Lamb
> alt: One of my fave songs…

“Mister sunshine looks over his shoulder for rain
All ours joys in this life are outlined by pain
But all we do is search and search
For fulfillment that seems so illusive
We should know that it’s all right here
If we just could see it” ~ Here by Lamb

“The wind stands still around you
And in your eyes the light inside you shines
If souls collide in heaven
Why not in present time ?” ~ Written by Lamb

“Sometimes I’m out in the bustling street
Dazz-led by all of the faces I see
It strikes me we get lost so soon after birth
But one smile can turn over Heaven and Earth” ~ Small by Lamb

“One day I met a precious soul
Who’s words had touched my heart
His poetry resounded so
It tore my soul apart
But when I tried my thoughts to speak
Emotion made my mind so weak
And time stood still for years and years
I bathed him in my tears

I cried, I tried
Tears of joy tears of pain
I cried, I cried
Tears of love again and again

Some people turn to pills and things
To help them throught the day
To take them up or down or just
To ease the blues away
But me I really want to feel
The ups and downs of life so real
Happy or sad emotions reign
My tears flow just the same” ~ I Cry by Lamb
> alt: For an Emo person like me… -______- ”’

“Are you feeling lost and lonely ?
You needn’t be
Like you’ve lost all hope and your sanity
Oh you needn’t be

If we only have one turn
In this life we have to learn

Carrying the world on your shoulders
You needn’t be
Ever more as you get older
You needn’t be, oh you needn’t be

If we only have one turn
In this life we have to learn

We wish our lives away
Hoping for a better day
The future’s miles away
And what is past is done and gone

If we only have one turn
In this life we have to learn” ~ Learn by Lamb

alt: Lamb and their lyrics, touched me right THERE.
Love the deep emotions tt flow thru even the
hardest of the Drum n Bass beats…

Irreversible.

watched Irreversible today…
i like the way it’s shot,
the disturbing movie tt i’ve always been intrigued to.
of losing urself in another person’s fked up life…

the invisible editing and stuff,
and appreciates the performance of the actors!!!
i read tt there is no script, just basic guidelines of the plot,
and it’s totally up to the actors to bring out the mood,
the characters, the dialogue…
spontaneous aye!

as for the FAMOUS 10min rape scene, and the murder scene…
well i was kinda prepared for it…
cos i actually watched the making of,
for those 2 scenes, knowing tt they got the stuff done up as CG…
so… well…

but i enjoyed e show… verily!
but rave reminded me of Memento,
which i have YET to watch… =\ hur hur…
BORROW AH? *hint hint*

Sorry Mr M.

i am a confused soul.
or, don’t we all are?

another sunday afternoon, sleeping, IRCing, doing nothing…
i’m supposed to go gym,
but… ahz… hmm… erm… heh…

i am not yearning for his call as much now,
compared to a few weeks ago…
i get really agitated and depressed when he goes MIA…
i guess tt spells the end.
i don’t even feel like meeting him later.

there goes my 3rd relationship =\
sorry, i’m the heartbreaker indeed, M.

Teardrop.

“Love, love is a verb
Love is a doing word
Fearless on my breath
Gentle impulsion
Shakes me makes me lighter
Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath

Nine night of matter
Black flowers blossom
Fearless on my breath
Black flowers blossom
Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath

Water is my eye
Most faithful mirror
Fearless on my breath
Teardrop on the fire of a confession
Fearless on my breath
Most faithful mirror
Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath

Stumbling a little
Stumbling a little”
~ Teardrop by Massive Attack

One of my favorite songs of all time.

Jeans that Fit.

analogies abt wat finding the other person in ur life,
can get really abstract man… ^_^
haaha but it’s all goot!

a pair of jeans is something u feel most comfy in,
u can go anywhere and everywhere in a good pair.
we’ve all bought ill fitting ones before,
but we’ll still end up either trying to wear it,
or trash it,
or cut it up to make into a skirt,
or jus bury it into the the back of the wardrobe
(where it will never see e light of day again)…

watever it is, it’s still a necessity.
u just can’t do without it.

“Hey, Summer Sun
You always smile
Clouds in the sky
You never mind
Happy or sad
You always shine
Never before
I’ve met your kind” ~ Summer Sun by Koop