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So sometimes I don’t show my appreciation much for him. But I do appreciate it whenever he goes out of his way to do stuff so that I didn’t need to.
I attribute my infrequent insensitivity to my upbringing. It’s true, we were brought up to be quite passive and reactive in nature. Although I have somewhat eradicated these traits over the years, sometimes these ugly bits still surface at the most inopportune moments.
I’m an inherently lazy soul. I didn’t have to lift a finger around the house when I was staying with my mother. I appreciated her efforts in keeping the household spick-and-span, but I sometimes wondered if she enabled me in my laziness.
Of course, I’m not about to blame everyone else but myself. But I get defensive because I beat myself up enough already, so when an external party tells me something bad, my natural instinct is to hold my ground. And we know how that turned out sometimes.
So if I forget to say “thank you” on occasions that I should, please don’t hold it against me. Please? I still meant what I didn’t say, you know.