Getting Out

by barffie

Been hearing about quite a bit of splits, of divorces and separations, from people around me. I get kind of disillusioned about it, sometimes.

Not that I am having any problems with him, but who is to say that things will stay the same, never to change? People change, circumstances change, feelings change, commitments change… I’m a pessimist, remember?

And the most important question is, have your desire to stay together changed, as well?

I am just a little afraid of losing this wonderful phase of my life to something called SHIT HAPPENS. Lucky for me, I am quite financially independent, so perhaps I’ll get away with it.

But what about the house? What about the home we used to own together? What’s gonna become of it? I can’t live with my mum, not anymore. Once I’ve tasted having my own place, it’s really tough to go back and share a room with her. And continuing to stay in this space which used to be ours… isn’t quite the option either.

It’s hard to believe, but I tend to remember some bits of the past too well, despite having some kind of a goldfish memory.

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Ok enough emo for now. Tomorrow’s a new work day. Whooopeee!