I weighed myself this afternoon and the results made me break down. So badly that Jeffwee was quite shocked and at a loss of what to do, while I sob away like a silly bum. I weigh 56KG as of now, and just about a month ago, I was about 54kg. I have gained about 8kg in 9 months, and 2 more KG on, I’ll be looking at the weight that I was, about 2 years ago, before all the dieting, all the exercise, which led me to lose about 10kg in a year…
In short, all of my efforts are wasted.
Bad is me, because I am unable to control my food intake and I love eating, way too much. A good day out for me will of course include a good, scrumptious meal with the boy. Pasta, Japanese Food, Pizza, Carrot Cake, Fried Kuey Teow and everything else. Exercise? Is long forgotten.
We’ve embarked on a weekly jog a few months ago, and like any other exercise regime that I tried previously, dwindled off to a miserable nothing. My belly dancing class is not vigorous and intensive enough for me to lose the weight I have piled on for the past few months. “I am a walking piece of lard now” I remembered sobbing to Jeffwee just now. Damn. (Update @ 11:39pm: I was inconsolable. He tried hard to cheer me up and reassure me that he still finds me pretty and all… I was totally wrecked. What cheered me up? A yummy sandwich at O’Brien’s. See the point now? I love eating. Good food makes me happy and I can seriously say, I live to eat. Sheesh.)
While considering the urgent need for me to lose alot of weight before the ROM day, we have discussed about the effects of taking carb blockers and getting prescription Xenical from the doctor’s. And the side effects are a very awful situation like having oily poo… Eew! A friend of his tried it and said sometimes oil seeps out involuntarily as well. Sheesh. And like I’ve mentioned a long time ago about my slimming principle, that is, never to pop slimming pills. I am afraid I have to go against it now.
I’ve heard good things about Fancl’s Perfect Slim drink, but the downside is, the awful awful price to pay to drink it everyday, for few months. The hefty pricetag is about $300 for a month’s supply. I guess I have to try the tablets first, which costs only a fraction of the drink. Fancl’s stuff are organic, and slightly less strong on the body, so hopefully it’s gonna work for me. 
And to add on to the pill popping thing, I am going on the South Beach Diet as of tomorrow. Phase one will require me to eliminate all rice, pasta, bread, fruits (yes even fruits!) and other stuff for two weeks. I can still eat all the lean meat and vegetables that I want, without controlling the intake. The problem is, salads costs anything from 6 to 10 bucks. And for the rest of the hawker food, there’s only sliced fish soup for me, it seems. No more chicken rice, no more wan ton mee, no more anything. Sounds despondant, huh.
Phase two allows me to slowly include the intake of … other restricted food. And slowly reduce the flab around myself. Argh. I have to see if I’ll survive the first 2 weeks before I go further in that. -_-
I will still carry on with my belly dance classes. And will try to pop over to the gym whenever I can, now that I have limited entry to our favorite California Fitness and Amore Fitness gyms… I think I shall do that.
Triple the effort, triple the results. I hope. Ugh. I hate being a girl.
