Today marks the 9th year of our marriage, and the 10th year of our first date as a couple. It’s not a very long time, but we have been through ups and downs together; toured many new destinations together; ate food from all over together; had some great and not so great moments together. But we’re are still together.
I’ve always said that I need you more than you need me. But maybe it’s because your love language differs from mine. I’m an insecure one, you see.
One of your dominant love language is “acts of service”, while mine is “words of affirmation”. You don’t communicate love in a verbal manner, but instead you clean the cat litter. I don’t clean the cat litter as often but I know it means a lot to you that I do. I’ll try to clean it more often, ok?
And you pick me up from work almost everyday… you don’t know how much it means to me to see your face smiling out at me from the car after a particularly tough day at work. Being with you keeps me quite grounded when my mind is all over the place.
My personal love language – words of affirmation – as a talkative person, I vocalise every damn thought in my head. So I let you know when I am upset by not saying anything at all and I know that frustrates you. I am trying to fix that and not let my emotions override my actions as much, thank you for being patient with me all these years.
So I turn 33. I’m still married, I still have 4 cats, I am still somewhat intact although I am at my heaviest ever. My hair loss problem has slowed ever since I wash my hair every night now (it used to be alternate nights!) and the shampoo is light enough for me.
For the first time in my life, I got eyelash extensions from this Japanese salon. It’s very nice and comfortable. No pain, itch or discomfort but I have to be careful about oil-based cleansers and not to rub my eyes!
I am happy.
I think work is working out well for me, but I think I could do with some breather now and then. It has been busy busy busy busy busy. I wish I had a little more time to think, read, watch anime and play my ukulele.
Tripped and stumbled at work a few times here and there… Messed some some stuff in life here and there… But I think all’s good. I have to be better though.
What can I say? Except to tell myself “Try my best. Enjoy what I’m doing. Be kinder to myself.”
I am having a lot of fun with the Ukulele. I practice almost every night and although I’m getting slightly better but I think it’s still a long time before I get good enough to show off!
That aside I am using it as some form of music therapy. I tend to get rather flustered and drained by the end of the workday, but playing the Ukulele, even just doing slow drills on 3 chord songs would help me in focusing my mind and also it helped me to maintain a calmness for hours.
This has been much better than meditation – in the latter, I would be constantly thinking about stuff… or worrying if I am doing it right. Which is precisely the wrong way to go about it!
So just strumming along and singing to myself on the bed… that would keep my mind focused and calm for a much longer period of time. I don’t think about much else, except to coax nice, sweet sounds from the Ukulele.
I’m still a little tense when I play, that’s why my shoulders and back are getting a little achy lately. Need to relax more! My left fingertips are slowly forming calluses… which would be useful in future I guess!